A single word can represent a variety of different constructs and meaning – as subjectively as a picture that paints a thousand words. With reference to this notion, I hope that you take notice this tendency as implicitly and explicitly expressed throughout my writing. I believe that this awareness is so true to many parts of life, ingrained in the very fabric that stimulates each unique perception. The way in which we perceive a concept or situation is heavily influenced by our own knowledge, past experience, thoughts about relevance and influence; and most significantly, the context which embodies an event.
I believe that I can understand the process through which my thoughts produce my reality; however, this understanding is always subject to change as I become exposed to new forms of information and knowledge. Thus, within this context I use the words “truth” and “reality” very loosely, as the formal definitions are dependent on the relationship between accurate facts and the accurate account of those facts – two operational requirements which become tainted from the moment of human interaction. In accordance with my understanding, neither one of the concepts mentioned above can ever be fully understood or conceptualized by the human mind, as a mind cannot escape from its own mind to observe itself more objectively. Even the mere attempt to understand or define my own “true” “reality” is impossible to achieve without subjectivity.
I believe that subjectivity is inherent to each process of experience.
Subjectivity accounts for the nurture half within human nature, illustrated through the presence of diversity.
It is thus imperative to understand that definitions of truth, reality, life, love…etc. are contextual and reflective of a lens unique to that authors frame of mind and reference at the time.
You do not get anything more personal than one’s thoughts; a by-product of language that is bound to culture and context. As a result, the lens through which I perceive, experience, interpret, internalize, and subsequently externalize, is personal, unique, and one part of a universal “truth”. This ties into the discourse of “good” and “bad” which are equally relative, dependent on context and content. Therefore, when speaking to intangible constructs which are not definable through science or universal consensus (such as 1 + 1 = 2) it falls within the realm of opinion. My truth is true to me and me alone, and as much as I’d like to maintain the idea of consistency in self through values, morals, and beliefs, sometimes my head conflicts with my heart and vice versa, producing a thought or action totally unforeseen, “out of character”, or hypocritical. This is the truth of reality. This is the essence of the human experience as nature meets nurture.
Whilst personal hypocrisy led to enhanced open-mindedness, it has also proven very beneficial by highlighting the role of context, subjectivity, and self-preservation. It has become apparent as well as important to recognize the influence of human interaction, particularly in the shaping of who I believe to be; what I stand for and why. In doing so I make way for a more honest account of who I am, moment to moment. This breeds both self-acceptance and self-fluidity through a flexible approach toward myself and the idea of control. One danger of belief lies in the power of opinion and the perceived importance of being universally “right”.
There is a difference between approval and acceptance.
The former is subject to personal regard whilst the latter should be a given.
By disregarding this distinction, freedom of choice is undermined due to the specific – and often unspoken – terms and conditions attached to the product of both action and inaction.
Exercising personal responsibility within my life plays an important role in how I perceive and create my own reality. To accomplish this I have committed to maintaining an understanding that promotes freedom of bias and subjectivity of the highest degree. Subjective in the sense of being bias towards my own idea and against another that stems from ignorance, favoritism, assumption, and/or false knowledge, that may influence my thoughts and behavior within and towards a particular situation. Such subjectivity has the potential to mislead perceptions and the understanding of an idea or experience. Therefore diluting it, molding its content to my will and degrading its value.
In summary, to gain understanding through a subjective light will have an influence on the observations that I will make, how I will perceive/understand such observations and then the degree to which I find that my perceptions are true/fact.
Claiming to understand the “real truth” of any kind, in its holistic form – especially those involving human interaction and influence, may for the most part be made only on a superficial level.
I recognize myself as existing within a series of social networks that are interconnected and interdependent, which ultimately produce reality.
Therefore, all aspects need to be accounted for as one needs to understand all the parts that make up the whole which is an impossible feat as life is an ever unravelling string; completely unscripted, indefinitely unique.
Making claims to truth will inherently depend on how I define “truth”, and thus, my truth may not necessarily be true for someone else. Yet in the quest for knowledge with the understanding that not even I am free from subjectivity, I direct my curiosity towards information that may highlight areas in which I may be bias. I do this as I recognize how I can be blind to the hypocrisy within my own thoughts, opinions and actions. This is not how I would like to define and produce an understanding of my reality. Thus, I aim to pursue knowledge that is based on primary rather than secondary information which is where I hope that you as the reader will come in and participate in my search.
P.s I hope that by understanding a fraction of my reality you may be willing to share yours.